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Wed, Apr. 5th, 2006, 11:54 pm

I'm deciding on whether or not it is smart to mend some bridges between people that I have lost contact with. I am definitely in a stage where i think it will be healthy for me and help me to get past a lot of things but then again, there would be a lot of mending to do. There is probably 5 inches of snow on the ground right now which makes me kinda angry. I thought spring was here and mother nature is now laughing in my face :(.

I'm going to get my tattoo tomorrow of a g-clef on my ankle. I'm pretty excited about this one and it has a lot of hidden meaning attached to it. I still haven't gotten any response from Albany or Oswego so I'm still patiently waiting.

Tomorrows the day.

Tue, Apr. 4th, 2006, 05:29 pm
9 years

Thursday is going to be 9 years and im starting to feel it.
I'm probably going to be anti-social for a couple days.

Tue, Apr. 4th, 2006, 09:03 am

Current Forecast:

Freezing Rain

Sun, Apr. 2nd, 2006, 03:46 pm

I had an absolutely incredible weekend. Noah came up and I can say that this is the first weekend in a while that we both actually had a lot of fun. We saw Failure to Launch which was an amazing movie so go see it. We also constructed our own three one five - opoly. It's amazing and I can wait to finalize everything so that it can be played in its entirety(sp?). I am still so glad that its spring, it brings out the happiness in everyone. Everything seems to be back to normal and at peace.

Tue, Mar. 28th, 2006, 07:54 pm

my mom called me earlier and told me that she recieved info from albany and oswego and is sending it out.

Im nervous.

Tue, Mar. 28th, 2006, 11:43 am

So my life is surprisingly on the up and just keeps going. I am doing the best i've ever done in school and i am even amazing myself. I've been wicked healthy lately and I haven't gotten sick in a while. I think its because I don't smoke anymore. I am so happy that Noah and I worked stuff out because this is the first time I've ever really tried to work out problems in a relationship. The semester is over in about 6 weeks and I still haven't gotten anything from Albany or Oswego. I'm going to end up registering for classes here at coby anyways just incase I don't get in. I bought apples to apples online because I think that cobleskill needs some(ANY) form of excitement and I know alot of really good people that would love to play it. I really do think that I am turning out to be the person that I was meant to be.

Thats it.

Wed, Mar. 22nd, 2006, 09:05 am
ultra lucky

so i woke up today at 8:20 when I have an 8 o'clock class. This is the fourth time I have missed this class and last time she gave me a warning that uf I miss it again she'll kick me out. I could not have been luckier when she accepted the paper I was turning in and then told me how good of a student I am. I was so relieved that she did not kick me out.

This is really the first semester that I have tried this hard, despite barely trying at all. I guess its just because I don't go out anymore that I am doing so well. I really want to get into either Albany or Oswego because I HAVE to get out of this school. Oswego would be nicer but I guess we will see what happens.

Oh, and I lost my watch in lab the other day because I am a retard. I really need to find it.

Also, Frederick has been freaking out the last couple of days, he's kinda scaring me. Crazy fish.

Thu, Mar. 16th, 2006, 05:23 pm

I worry too much about things that shouldn't be worried about. I applied to Albany and Oswego today so we'll see what happens. I was talking to my mother about how I applied to Albany and she started giving me a guilt trip about it stating how it would be easier for everyone if I went to Oswego. My life is not supposed to be easier for anyone in my opinion. So I told her how I felt and gently hung up on the conversation.

I also determined that my mother and I are alike because I always find something wrong in situations. Which is why I worry too much because I am really always thinking about what could go wrong.

Thats it, I'm done.

Mon, Mar. 13th, 2006, 07:03 am

It's been a wicked long time since I've updated. Nothing much new has changed except I have to be done with anyone that does hard drugs and brings me down. Syracuse won the fucking Big East because we are champions and what do champions do? Thats right, they win. I went home last week for break and it did and didn't seem long. The best part about being home is spending nights with Noah. The thing is, is that I love him and I'm probably the most scared I ever have been. I was thinking about taking a couple of summer classes and getting stuff over with but it's probably better for me to stay an extra semester, for some reason I'm relying on that security. I'm going on a wicked diet starting today so this should be fun. I guess that's about it. My life isn't that exciting, and when it is maybe I'll update some more.

Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005, 12:33 am

Another state to add to my list. This makes a total of four, if you count the one i was born in. Mass was full of crazy driving, awesome people, and ambushes. Noah, Bryan, Nica and I started out from Coby around 9:00 in the morning Friday. Got to Burlington, Mass around 12:30 drove around for about 45 minutes until Noah decided to call the hotel and tell them we're lost. After we got freshened up and ready we headed out to the city and ate at The Rack. Awesome fucking steak tips, award winning(literally). When we got back to the hotel after all the getting lost, it was full of 'getting started' and hot tub adventures. The first room that we were in got fucked up. Fighting monkey nuts? There were crazy pillow fights in both rooms but I believe that Nica and I put up a good fight with those vikings. Sleeping was difficult because the first room was only a king sized bed. Order was Noah, Me, Nica, Bryan. I'll admit, at one point i almost began to cuddle with Nica but quickly caught myself and went toward my boyfriend<3.

Saturday I'm not sure what time we headed out to the city. We walked Quincy Market for about two hours saw crazy breakdancers and then decided to head back. The architecture in Boston is absolutely inticing and I believe that it is absolutely amazing looking at old buildings and just imagining all the history that happened there. When we went back we headed to the mall. I was going to sing karaoke in the hopes of winning $250.00 but by the time i entered, time was up. GHEY!!! Nica and I walked around the mall and the guys went their separate ways. If anyone would like to get me the LOTR pinball machine, please go to The Sharper Image. We went to the Rainforest Cafe for dinner. It was amazing, crazy exotic fish in tanks and animals going off every ten minutes, gorillas, elephants, birds, thunderstorms. I had this crazy stir fry that i recommend it was just full of goodness. I fell asleep early when we got back after more, 'getting started' and hot tub action.

Sunday we went back down to the market to grab food and then headed back around 1:30 or 2:00. It was a pretty depressing end but all in all a great fucking weekend. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I really want to express the crazy amount of fighting and wrestling but I just cant. I really think I needed that break, I think I might be back a little bit but im wandering around inside myself.

Alright Jay and Allen, I hear you... I'll stop sounding depressing.

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